It’s been an hour And I’m still tossing on my bed thinking about the same person Every now and then
Is it safe for me to feel that way or is it with everyone else that the past keeps reeling
There are a lot of expectations I have to keep up with everyday I wake up with a lot of things on my mind and still at the end of the day some of them are not accomplished
Is it just that I overthink that how I been the best listener for everyone that I somehow feel empty inside there’s no one is there to listen to me
My little heart is still bruised and my subconscious mind tells me to stop but there are things that a person is intended to do.
Everywhere I see its feels I am lost and I cannot fit in here. Everyone makes me feel odd one out and it obviously feels that I am an alien.
Recently I’ve been waiting for a good thing to happen which would be a miracle .I’m waiting for it to happen.
It feels like I’ve m giving my best, working around the clock and still I am not getting any fruits out of it .Everything feels that it is going into vain.
Distraction has not got me anywhere and I still look at the sky wishing things could turn upside down like being in a better way for me.
It’s been awkward sitting at my own house and feeling that pinching feeling of getting up from the bed each morning with a heavy heart and lost motivation.
This scenario has never happened I think that is a part of growing up read you lose all your friends because you have been working hard and everyone around you has been underestimating your pain and struggles and being misleaded by the smile I put on.
Getting disappointed each day with every subtle mistake committed and you feel helpless thinking how miserable your life is every point you feel like giving up and push yourself just looking at your loved ones that you need to be strong for them not for yourself .
Either it is just a fight for survival or dragging up one’s life for others. Anyway it’s just a fight to show perseverance as well as who owns the stage with the role given to them.