Well sorry for the delay I made Ruby used to live in the Marvick mansion. Ruby’s grandparent’s had one big farmhouse which was divided into two farmhouses next to each other. It wasn’t as big as the house where I live, but she prefered staying alone in tha mansion. Though we said her not to shift there, it’s not safe, but she didn’t listen to us. While reading her diary, I realized that there is something severe that she is hiding from all of us. I continued reading the diary on the page 5 it was written that.
“And my piano makes the final tone
Of my last masterpiece,
And I am finished with my display of feelings in the grandest style ever,
Through my emotions
Recorded in musical notes.
The next piece of music
Is always upcoming with more soothing
And more melodious notes of sound,
And I hope it would be the best ever
To note my feelings down.”
And this was something mesmerizing Ruby is excellent in singing and musical instruments. She loves music, and it’s depth. On page 6:
“Pillow: A partner who has witnessed our silent tears in all those tough nights.
Roommate: The constant 3 am Maggie for all the years we spend in the college.”
And I’m pity sure that it was for me.
And on page 6 it was written “I want to be a lamp to eradicate the darkness,
To illuminate the world and increase the brightness.
I want to be a lamp not to allow anyone to shed the tears in the dark,
To share with me the pain and make themselves relaxed and leave a happy remark.
The gloomy night will end very soon if the lamp is with you,
To embark the journey of hope in the next morning with you. ”
And on page 7 it was a confession letter to god
“Don’t mean to offend you but had to write this…
TAKE ME TO HELL!
Spent my life with people having only religion in their heads,
Asaram’s “actions” were stronger than the meds!
Sugar and curd before exams could do what studying could not,
I did not secure a good job, that was what Baba’s tawis had brought.
They cursed me for not falling prey to the “divine” Baba’s ritual,
My marriage was based on kundli and not on what was mutual.
The formation of stars were more important than the love I had,
Infront of them, those who believed in bonds were actually mad!
“Leave her in my ashram for tonight” he said with eyes of lust,
To cure her from the disease of homosexuality, this is a must.
What I recieved that day was nothing less than utmost torture,
He said.. “Babaji ki maafi” this was ‘babaji ka pyaar’ for my better future.
Who gives shelter to the criminals in the houses of the god?
Teaching terrorism in their institutes… Religious school or fraud?
A call for prayers would be the most peaceful sound of them all,
Never knew it was the biggest terrorist attact about to befall.
They shot people of all religions yet yelled the slogan of one,
It wasn’t a massacre of humans but of humanity that begun.
Alas it happened… Something I looked forward but also feared,
I layed down unconscious and before me Thanatos appeared.
He asked me my own desired destination in afterlife “the unknown”,
Fiery hell and the gifting heaven were the options I was shown.
It was my choice, I could choose heaven if it was where I wanted to be
Wasn’t heaven and 72 virgins promised to the one who killed me?
Don’t tell me the one who raped me is not going to heaven,
The position of a godman and the entry to heaven he was given.
With my heart in pieces and eyes fully teared I let out a yell,
It’s hell! I beg of you, please… TAKE ME TO HELL!!!”
And on page 9 it was written
This duration of 3 years,
Our shading of love and tears,
To love each other in glory,
To cherish every moment in merry,
To bloom in the weeds of heart,
To set the world apart,
To tear the pages of optimism,
To feel the blossom in every season,
You had been with me in ups and downs,
You let me feel the stars and counts,
Your touches and kisses that made me free,
From tons of hurdles and moments to flee,
I miss your deep dark eyes,
Which set my heart pound,
That let me feel,
Those clouds on ground,
All I need is you in me,
To make my soul feel the glee.